Sometimes, my mind suddenly becomes aware,
and it tells me what I should do or what I imagine I should do for the situation.
It may tell me something that I don’t want to admit,
or that I won’t particularly like to do,
but my mind starts trying to make me believe that it’s a right thing to do.
I begin to make things more complicated or difficult
since, I guess, I have been that way since I was small.
Sometime, I think I am not good at being or staying happy.
But at the same time, I believe that I always put myself into the situation where I know it’s not gonna work
but I want to believe that it would work…
But the reality is what it is.
At the end, you can’t change what you can’t change.
Here I am. Woke up at 3 AM.
With no reason. Typing these words.
I am not upset with anybody.
I am just upset with myself.
For being like this for so long.
When will I be able to stop doing this?
When will I be able to stop thinking too much?
I don’t know.
but one thing….
I am honest with myself.